Day 25: Game changed ever so slightly

Probably not for the better though. I had a tough food day today. Biscotti for breakfast. Trisqits cheese avocados and turkey for lunch. I had portioned my cheese but then when I wanted more I got some cream cheese. How I thought I could control myself in front of a bucket of cheese was beyond me. Then I met a friend for dinner. The dinner was ok but then I endulged <- that's me tryin not to feel guilty. Half a bottle of wine, half of a gigantic candy bar and almost a half a pack of cigarettes. I'm going to pay for it tomorrow. 

BUT, the big but but not as big as my butt is going to be, I had a great night. I met with my amazing friend Sana. She always puts life into perspective for me. She makes me realize I can do so much more for myself. I hope that one day I stop worry about others and do more for me. I'm going to work harder for this diet.  I'm going to push myself harder than before. This is about me. I want to look in the mirror and finally see the person I feel is trapped inside on the outside.