Day 26: Grrrr

Fml. Work is taking over and I can't help it. The problem is that when I'm so far into work I don't have the energy to figure out food. So I need to figure out working out. Lots of working out. I'm stuck in a rut and this is the weight I always stay at and plateau at. I start seeing 20's and think I'm better than being the 30's. Truth is when I was younger I used to dread weighing more than 200. Why is that not a scare now? All I want is my family member to see me in 40 days and see a difference from last year. Actually I want to look at myself and see a difference. But I give up. I can't this time. Ive been doing so well. I need to pick up my workout game. I need a bigger deficit in calories. I'm gonna get it done. Sunday I will reread my whole blog. Empower my thoughts and actions again.