Day 5: Oh to dance again

Today was not a good day. I hate that my mood can change so quickly. I went out to breakfast with a friend and then hung out. When I got home I had to cook dinner. I think not having my simple breakfast and set plans for the gym threw me off. There's only early classes at the gym tomorrow. But that doesn't mean I can't go on my own. I will get a work out in tomorrow at some point in the day. 

To be honest even today I felt the urge to work out. I was just in such a funk about my living situation that I kept hemming and hawing about it all. So I've decided to spruce up my room and get a little more organized. I have my bday coming up and a very special family member is coming into town mid March. I want to be in track to celebrate once and for all the ways I've always wanted to. Feeling great in my own skin for once. 

Even now I'm sitting here watching this Bollywood film and thinking how I wish I had the girls body. Not because I want to show it off but because I want to DANCE. I always regretted letting go of my dancing and letting go of myself. I stopped taking classes, then I stopped dancing so much at parties and then my dad passed away and not dancing for a year just took away whatever skill was left. I love the feeling of blasting music and dancing. Without a care in the world and feeling the music in your bones. I will get back to that place again. I feel it. I know it. I'll do it.